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torstai, toukokuu 31, 2007
Summertime...
My holidays begin yesterday. I have haven't been this busy in ages. I wish I could get my life together. Head together. Money things together. But still, I am more alive than ever. Annnnnyway, got myself a total humiliation yesterday at schools springparty. I was one of the host and It takes months to get over it. Damn.
Kinda happy that I don't have school in 2.5 months. Yippee.
It was raining, pouring yesterday. I got myself totally wet, walked around and listen Von Hertzen Brothers -
i was free for a moment
i was free, i was free
and now i�m here for a moment
to be free, to be free
endlessly
I felt like my heart race it's way out from me and I cried. And it was raining like never before.
I love rain.
Eeek, svarte rudolfiin 12-14 testi/kokeiluvuoro. J�nnitt��. Nyt suihkuun!!!
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tiistai, toukokuu 29, 2007
Soutamaan kirkkoveneill�. Vett� pit�isi tulla kuin esterinperseest�. Laitan intist� saadun verkkapuvun joka kest�� varmaan ydinsodan myrkyt ja pakkaan reppuun sadetakin. Meitsi kun ei ole sokerista tehty.
Uijuijuijui kun j�nnitt�v� p�iv�. Ja alkaa menn� hermo t�h�n jo kolmatta viikkoa jatkuvaan loputtomaan N�R�STYKSEEN. Perjantaina onneksi l��k�ri jossa p��sen avautumaan, ett� kuuluuko tosiaan niihin l��kkeisin n�in vahvat sivuoireet...*Burb*
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maanantai, toukokuu 28, 2007
The Kill - 30 Seconds To Mars
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come, break me down
bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you
Come, break me down
bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now: this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, THIS IS WHO I REALLY AM
Oh oh
Oh oh
Oh oh
Come, break me down
bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
What if I wanted to break...?
(You say you wanted more,
what are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you...)
What if I, what if I, what if I...
(bury me, bury me)
T�� biisi toimii t�n��n. Ihme p�iv�. Kouluun pitk�st� aikaa. Ty�harjoittelu ohi. Ukkosta ilmassa, kuuma. Hikist�. Mit��n varsinaisesti saanut aikaiseksi. �iteen luona tuunaamassa juhlamekkoa viikonlopun valmistujaisia yms. kekkereit� varten. Lotsa t�it� tiedossa. V�h� ressaa. V�sytt��. ��ni ihan romunakin viel�. Mut t�� on t�t�. Hauska oli olla taas koulussa. Huomenna menn��n soutamaan, sitten ty�haastattelu ja t�ihin 17-00 Caribiaan. Eos mik� tilaisuus, mutta ihan lysti� siell� aina on. :) Ke kev�t juhla ja mun lukukausi oli sitten siin�. To valmistuvien juhlat ja sitten pe-su onkin ylpp�reit� ja muita eri alojen valmistuvien kutsuja minne pit�� menn� onnittelemaan...Mut mut nyt kotia kohti.
maanantai, toukokuu 28, 2007 |
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perjantai, toukokuu 25, 2007
Star Wars, nothing but Star Wars...
One of my biggest love since I was a little tiny girlie. 30 years today. It brings a lot of memories. Summer 1996 when me and my sister watched one star wars (ep 4-6) per night, every night. Then listen LP soundtrack. Ten years ago we went to special edition premier. 21.5 ten year ago. Special edition return of the jedi at 25.5 - it was magical. Our lives where star wars at that time. It's been one of the greatest thing ever. Being a fan is great. At the moment we are drinking sparkling wine and listening soundtracks and 70's disco version of the music. :D So, make a toast! For greatest trilogy of all time!
perjantai, toukokuu 25, 2007 |
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Aurinko tuoksuu ihanalle.
perjantai, toukokuu 25, 2007 |
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Parhautta
What Monty Python Sketch Character are you?
perjantai, toukokuu 25, 2007 |
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torstai, toukokuu 24, 2007
Go Liverpool. You guys played well.
I wonder, could I handle 3 to 4jobs during summer. I already have two and I am doing extra shifts too. Then I have a job interview tomorrow afternoon...Hmm.
Well see about that.
torstai, toukokuu 24, 2007 |
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sunnuntai, toukokuu 20, 2007
V�sytt��
"Wasted Years"
There's a game life plays
makes you think you're everything they ever said you were
Like to take some time
Clear away everything I planned
[Chorus]
Was it life I betrayed
for the shape that I'm in
It's not hard to fail
it's not easy to win
did I drink too much
could I disappear
and there's nothing that's left but wasted years
There's nothing left but wasted years
If I could change my life
Be a simple kind of man try to do the best I can
if I could see the signs
I'd derail every path I could
now I'm about to die
won't you clear away from me
give me strength to fly away
[Chorus]
There's nothing left but wasted years [x3]
[Chorus x3]
song by Cold.
Eka. Vois soitella joku p�iv�.
Noo iloosia uutisia - eilen dyniksessa oli maaliman hienoin ty�ilta. Ai voi m��� p��sin niinko ehk� dynikseen noin niinko t�ihin. Ihana oli l�iski� rinksuu ulos tiskilt� ja vaan paiskia hommia. Nauratti, tanssitti ja iloitsin. M� sitten vaan rakastan tuota ty�t� ja kun siihen kompensoi ton paikan niin ai ai. Viel� kun on kuitenkin v�h�n outsaideri ja silleen. Kaikki oli todella ihania ja nauroin paljon ja olin lopulta v�h�n rentoutunutkin. Mutta m�� j�nnit�n aina niin kovin.
Nukuin sit pommiin aamulla. Piti menn� aamuun hotellille. Her�tyskelloni oli soinut pari tuntia ja her��n siihen kun puhelin pirisee - vastaan. Vastaanotossa oleva Sirke on, ett� ei tarvii tulla - hommat jo tehty. *stab in the heart*
No, huomenna sitten aamulla sinne vaikka piti olla vapaa p�iv�. Niin sit� tapahtuu :) Ei lienen haittaa, ei muutenkaan huomenna muuta kuin jazz jamit illalla. Pit�isi varmaan niist�kin skipata etten vahingossakaan laula. Laters.
sunnuntai, toukokuu 20, 2007 |
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lauantai, toukokuu 19, 2007
New Transformers Trailer
lauantai, toukokuu 19, 2007 |
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tiistai, toukokuu 15, 2007
T�p t�p t�pp�ilyj�
Mo. �iteen duunissa taas kun viel�k��n ei netti toimi. Sain toimivan langattoman adsl modeemin joka paljasti, ett� vihdoin kun on puhelinpistoke niin joku vet�nyt sen liit�nn�n sitten niin, ettei tuo siihen pistokkeeseen mit��n. Soitto surinalle ja pit�v�t vikalistaan ja tietysti odotettavissa vuosi asioita. Ei olekkaan kun 2.5kk asian kanssa tapeltu, hermot ja rahat menee. Kohta alan nunnaksi, rukoilen jumalaa, j�t�n k�nnyk�n ja internetin sek� meditoin ruohonjuuritasolla muurahaisten seassa.
Eilen satoi koko p�iv�n. Yhdeks�lt� kun hipsin hotellilta himaan iltavuorosta nautiskelin sateen j�lkeisest� harmaasta valosta, kosteista teist� ja raikkaasta l�mpim�st� ilmasta. T�n��n tuulee ja aurinko paistaa. V�sytt�� sill� y� meni hirve�ss� n�r�styksess� ja yl�kerrassa oli niin kovat bileet ett� taulu v�risi sein�ll�. Syd�n nousi kurkkuun kun telkkari pamautettiin niin kovin soimaan, ett� piti huutaa jotta sai ��nens� kuuluviin ja naapuri ei kuullut edes sit� kun hakkasi kattoa - niin kova oli melu. Oli kyll� varmaan toisessa huoneessa sen ajan...mutta haloo - kahden aikaan y�ll� ei tarvis, pliis.
T�n��n sitten yritt�nyt lukea huomisiin r�stitentteihin. Pessyt pyykki�. Oli pakko ulostautua hetkeksi, sitten lukemaan takaisin, muutama tunti unta ja hotellille y�vuoroon. Sielt� p��sen kuudelta aamulla josta sitten koululle samoilla silmill� tentteihin. Sitten unta. Sitten illaksi zanzibariin promoilemaan. Sitten unta. To vapaa. Pe aamuvuoro hotellilla (muistaakseni) ja lauantaina my�s. Ilta / y� dynamoon hommiin ja su aamuun hotellille. N�in menee reippahasti loppu viikko. Hitto ett� v�sytt�� ja aivot jossain laamailu tilassa. Silm�t painaa. Vartalo kuin hernes�kki. Raskas kantaa.
Kaiken t�m�n alla on enemm�n kuin elossa koskaan. Josta tulikin mieleeni viime viikonlopun viisuilta...Kiitos Minna seurasta. Lapsuuden kaveri sukevalta on kasvanut isoksi ja tuli meittien kanssa viisuilemaan. Lysti� oli. Suomi otti sunnuntaina hopiaa ja eilen oli aika kooma sen takia...��niterapiassa aamulla oli kiitollisena t�ti vastassa m�re�lle puhkihuudetulle soundilleni.
M� ja Sisko
Oltiin hyvis fiiliksis noin niinko totaallisesti. Oli meill� jokavuotinen viisujuomapelikin. T�n� vuonna s��nn�t meni n�in - h�rppy aina kun:
- Tulee modulaatio.
- Tulee vaatteiden vaihto ( tai joku riisuu jotain ym. )
- Artisti tai tanssija, soittaja iskee silm�� kameralle.
- Mikko Leppilampi py�r�ht�� 360 astetta.
Ja niit�h�n sai h�rppi� sitten.
Minna, Senni ja Meitsi.
S'on hyv� kun on hauskaa. Jatkot Edisonissa oli my�s lystikk��t ja koko el�m� on vaan niin ihanaa. Huomiset tentit menee varmaan ihan p�in kettuja mutta ei voi sanoa, etten olisi yritt�nyt. Varmaan nukahdan matikankokeen p��lle n�hden unia SINeist� ja COSiineista...
tiistai, toukokuu 15, 2007 |
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sunnuntai, toukokuu 13, 2007
I Am so happy. Crying. Serbia you ROCK!!!! <3 I am so being there next year.
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lauantai, toukokuu 12, 2007
Goddamn. I love the eurovision this year and it is not the reason that it is held in Finland. Love it love it! :D I am so proud and ... goddamn. Ok, back to telly. This is the greatest eurovision since 1996 contest. Sigh.
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perjantai, toukokuu 11, 2007
one of my biggest dream is come true -> watching eurovision song contest semi-finals which is held in Helsinki / Finland. I am half crying all the time. Great shit. Luv this. Back to telly. I can hardly wait saturday. I've been seeing some familiar faces, old friends and co-actors from the clips. great fun. But aye - telly.
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torstai, toukokuu 10, 2007
yucko the clown
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tiistai, toukokuu 08, 2007
Voice therapy
I just came back from my first 2� hours of voice therapy. My head is spinning around and my throath is aching. Oh yeah. Mentally I am quite confused because this all is quite too much too fast. "We need to build you new acoustic identity"...
I am breathing all wrong. Only thing I do as it should be is yelling. Heh, so don't I wonder why my voice was fine while army...
I am just plain tired all of this shit. We went through my casual week and sorted what kind of voice I use in different kind of situations and it is mostly hard voice. At school, at medieval market rehersals, with the band, at work...I need to boycott phonecalls and all the idle speaking/singing/whateva. Also I need to have physical therapy cause my neck is stone.
Perkele m�� en jaksa t�ll�isi� "pieni�" v�hint��n kolmen kuukauden l��kekuureja, uusia ��nillisi� identiteetin rakentamisia ja ties mit�...It takes money that I don't have. It takes time from work I should be doing and I shouldn't be doing anything with shouting -> waiting is quite loud or working in nightclubs but what can you do. I am worried, happy with my doctors and deeply deeply confused. Sigh.
My work practice perioid at Hotel started yesterday and I am very happy about it. Also eurovision song contest are almost here, Minna Herranen is visiting at the weekend and ... stuff like that. Yay.
tiistai, toukokuu 08, 2007 |
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lauantai, toukokuu 05, 2007
Best moments
From last summer.
(I don't have to hurry, I am at Mum's and my stepfather is fixing my car - so it will take awhile and I have to hang around here then...)
Parhaita kuvia ei viitti edes laittaa. Viime kes�n� sattui kyll� kaikkea ihanaa. Nyt kun katselee kuvia niin tajuaa. Ekan kanssa tuli hankittua vaikka mink�laisia seikkailuja. T�it� tuli tehty� mit� ihmeellisimmiss� paikoissa ja vaikka mink�laisia hommia mm. lastenkaraokea ampiaiseksi pukeutuneena...tuli k�yty� Mallan ja Jussin h�iss� josta sitten suorilta nauhoitteleen Saagan EP:t�...Maskeerattua ja n�ytelty� taas markkinoilla ja maskattua yksi leffa ja samalla painoin y�t t�it�. Aloitin loppu kes�st� koulunkin. Putkiremontti. Tapasin ihmisi�. Kaikenlaista.
Hard rock Halleluja! This pic is from The Cow where we partied like no tomorrow after Finland won the Eurovision song contest and made one of my biggest dreams come true. It was a night and day I remember forever. I am still not believing it.
Me and Eka had one of our greatest roadtrip and we wen't grazy about well...everything as you can see. Lotsa fun.
I was working around in Turku in different night clubs promoting J�germeister. It was fun and I am again doing it at summer.
At july we took a trip to s�kyl� with Eka and Senni. I bought this great toy Siili and is still hanging at my keys. It brings memories. It was great day.
We love sugar. <3
I was kinda of an assistant and did make-up for medieval market (I have been acting there for four years) too ... it was great fun even thought days where SO long - But I loved it.
My role was Onna Pietarintyt�r and I was kinda loonie with a kid. I have had a long way to home and you can see it from the bruises...It is not easy to be singe mum at medieval times and traveling alone without a husband around.
Sing a song and dance like there is no tomorrow!
At our summer cottage. Sigh. I love the evening light and mood at summer. I can hardly wait.
My dear friend Malla get married with Jussi. It was few days to remember. I sang Sinua Sinua rakastan at their wedding and I was having a terrible cold. It was hard to sing cause I didn't have much voice and I was half crying. :) At night I took a bus back to home and at morning I drove to Saaga's recording session...
Others spend there few days without me and then I came up to hang for few days. It was great even thought I didn't have much voice. I sang my parts in darkness at big hall with few candles...We had this great thunder storm and we couldn't record cause it was risky.
Epa and I ran around in the rain and it wasn't very clever thing to do because I didn't have much clothing with me. :D I haven't got a change to be in that kind of rain ever! It was mad! :D like a heavy shower.
I did make-up to this one horror film too and I got a dream part to act. I quess it will be a minute or two in final film but anyway - it was great fun to do, lots of blood and I got a change to be hard ass motherfucker female cop with a wig and replica gun.
Saaga's promo session picture. One of the best days with the band.
Shame is that I've lost lots of pictures. And now my ubs stick is lost and pics from London with it. Damn. Oh well...Argh few hours and I should be in soundcheck...
lauantai, toukokuu 05, 2007 |
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P�iv�kodin lapset on pihalla taas
I am kinda nervous about the fact that we are having a gig tonight. It will be fine and I am more than happy to have it since last gig was so great, I love the band and I really need their company right now. Last night I had medieval market practice and I was having a hard time with my voice. Again. Now I am seeing that things that I thought that where just normal for me are nothing like that. I really need to get better to have my voice working. Tonight I am going to sing like there is no tomorrow and then stay quiet for month. It will be hard because I am singing all the time without even noticing it myself.
I was so tired last night. Had a great late dinner at Bossa and then home and straight to bed. My head was spinning around after having few class of wine. I slept like a baby and woke up before 6 am. Then I drove to Riihikoski to meet my hairdresser. Now I have nice hair and too much time before the gig. I am sooooo nervous. My hands are shaking. I wonder � will I have this kind of jumpy neurvousness and stage fright for ever? I have been performing since I was a little girlie. It have been much harder when I was younger but I am still a mess every time. Even if I go to sing Karaoke or stuff like that � I am shaking and having a hard time.
PERKELE KUN J�NNITT��! Kaikki p�iv�kotiin sitte t�n��, eiks je.
lauantai, toukokuu 05, 2007 |
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perjantai, toukokuu 04, 2007
To be free
At school. Tired I am, suppose it is because it is that time of month...
And I am a bit down. Today there is medieval market rehersals and then I should go to Saaga rehersals and afterwards sauna. Then at morning I need to get up early and go to haircut. I hate the fact that I am broke and bank needs it's money in few days. And I have nothing. I have bills I cannot pay and now I cannot work for month! I need to be thinking about myself now but it is SO hard! My teachers feels so sorry for me (even thought I didn't tell anything - it somehow came open for all ) and argh oh well...
I was at class moment ago, listening von hertzen brothers and I almost bursted to cry when it hit me - that I cannot sing. I need to watch myself over not to be singing. It will be so hurtful and it is already.
human feelings after all
are waves that linger on my shore
no one sees them and they�re gone
the tide comes and brings them up once more
falling headlong - like a newborn
from a great height to a new life
all i wished for when i died
was to do so with a smile in my eyes
i saw the wind and so much more
the whirlwind came knocking at my door
from a sunrise - through the past lives
from a rain cloud to a bare ground
i was free for a moment
i was free, i was free
and now i�m here for a moment
to be free, to be free
endlessly
did you learn your lessons?
did you meet their needs?
did you look behind the memories?
did you share your wisdom?
did you make it real?
did you meet the eyes of enemies?
Damn I love this song. Endlessly...I love the band.
Ok, back to class.
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torstai, toukokuu 03, 2007
Olipa kerran...
Lotta syntyi maailmaan er��n� r�nt�isen� aamup�iv�n�. Hetken p��st� n�ki ett� h�nest� tuli ihminen.. Perhe oli hermoton ja he eiv�t n�hneet h�t��. Koulussa h�n suorastaan loisti taidoillaan, siell� h�nelle oltiin kateellisia h�nen vanhemmistaan.
Jo opiskeluaikoina h�nt� alkoi ihastuttamaan sairastelu, niinp� mielipuuhaksi tuli paperipiirakat.
Lotta kehittyi kolmannellakymmenell� varsin yst�v�lliseksi. P��h�ns� h�n sai oranssit hiukset, sek� siniset silm�t.
Marssisimesta johtuen h�n oli eritt�in pahamaineinen. Lempiruokaansa styroxpuuroa h�n sai ty�skennellen risukasojen korjaajana.
Lotta tupakoi ja k�ytt�� nuuskaa ollessaan sukulaisissa. Alkoholia h�n juo armeijassa.
H�n koppasi itselleen puolison jonka kanssa ei uskaltanut menn� naimisiin.
Sen pituinen se.
torstai, toukokuu 03, 2007 |
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keskiviikko, toukokuu 02, 2007
Kyhmyij
K�vin tuossa Foniatriaa moikkaamassa. V�h�n sill� meisingill�, ett� k�yd��s nyt kattelee kun kerran laulututkinnossa er�s laulunopettaja kehoitti.
Nyt toivon, etten olisi k�ynyt.
Kuukausi saikkua, l��kekuuri, ��nenk�ytt�kielto, vain kaksi kuppia kahvia p�iv�ss�, ei kolajuomia, ei suklaata, v�lt� teet�, ei tupakointia tai passiivisavukointia...
Pitk�aikainen pitkittynyt kurkunp��ntulehdus ja kyhmyj� ��nihuulissa.
��niterapiaa, mahdollisesti pit�� opetella uudestaan puhumaan (?), seurantaa ja jos ei auta niin leikkaus.
Kiva. Lauantaina keikka. Sen kyll� ved�n. Ja t�it� olisi pakko tehd� sill� olen niin peeaa! Keskiaikaisetmarkkinat!?! Mulla on huomenna ty�haastattelu Dynamoon! Vittu. Y�ty� ja ravintolaty� on kuulemma kuukauden ajan iso Nou.
Emm��tii� mit� ajatella.
Pelottaa. Syd�n hakkaa, p��ss� takoo, k�det t�risee.
M� en kest� olla laulamatta kuukautta. M� en vaan kest�. Se on sama kuin taiteilija ei saisi maalata tai tanssija tanssia.
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