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maanantai, tammikuu 30, 2006
I've been so busy lately. School is taking all my energy and time. If im not in the school I do some rehersaling with my sister hair or so on. My room and apartment is in a mess, I have so much going on my head that I cannot do anything cause I dont know where to start. And I spend all the nights reading, sitting in computer doing stuff or watching shit from television...ANYWAY! I've loved to be in school thought. Great great great time. "Lotsa" new funny ppl around me and much of inspiration. Inside me Im still trying to catch what is going on in life. Everything is happening so fast that I cannot go on with it...Army ended like almost month ago and somehow it feels that I didnt even have that year. Im trying to figure out who I am now and how I do. I miss my homies around in Turku and in army. And everywhere. Im a bit confused.
Saaga is having a gig in DOWNTOWN / turku at 11.2.2006. Im so Excited!!1 I just came from interview for Turun Sanomat which is a local news paper around here about it. Grreeeat. We are getting things happening ... check out the webpages and come to gig! RIGHT on!
maanantai, tammikuu 30, 2006 |
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perjantai, tammikuu 20, 2006
Wind blows in my room
Its so cold here in my room. During the time that I sleep I woke up few times just to realize that DAMN Im freezing. I could even feel the air moving, cold air blowing from the window. Sigh. My throath is sore and I feel strange, hopefully I dont get any flu or something. I fight against it more than hard! I should wear somekind of pyjama or something warm at bed during the wintertime...I should get one then. I dont have any! Oh well. My throath is very very sore. Damn. I shall get some stuff with me to school and took loads of vitamins. Im not going to be sick! NO WAY! We have a loads of stuff in school I dont want to skip any important hours of work.
Also the jobinterview I had last week...I was suppose to hear about them this week but no word of 'em. They where very straight about "Dont call us, we call you"-thang. I cannot do any other contacts and so on before I know that how's things with that work. I want that work so bad! I mean ...
Sain Kelalta avustuksia. Opintotuki ja asumislis�. Ottavat siit� pois jonkun ikuvanhan jutun viel� jonka Kela antoi joskus 2002 anteeksi ja ettei tarvitse maksaa koska olen niin k�yh�. No kauniit puheet pannaan - ottavat nyt rahat siis pois. Saan sen verran rahaa kuussa, ett� vuokran j�lkeen j�� 60e ruokaan, laskuihin ja yleiseen el�miseen. Opintolainaa tulevat tukemaan vain tonnin edest� joten joudun ottamaan valtavan summan pankkilainaa ja t�m�kin menee suoraan koulumaksuihin etc. Sossulle sitten vaan - Not. I need goddamn work. Toisaalta tuloraja on naurettavan alhainen...En saa tehd� t�it� (onneksi) niin paljon kun v�ltt�m�tt� himottaisi.
Its -20 degrees outside. Sparkling.
perjantai, tammikuu 20, 2006 |
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torstai, tammikuu 19, 2006
Im AMAZINGLY tired and just wanted to say that I put some great pics to my Livejournal. Pics from today. ITs cold and winterish here. <3 Weekend is coming.
torstai, tammikuu 19, 2006 |
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From time to time things from the past rise their head and I see myself biting my lip and trying to think something else. I really should start to write it all out.
Im exausted. For last week I've been rolling around in my bed at night and woke up to see that Im having extreme cold after kicking all the blankets away to the floor. I usually live in same damn position whole night. Everytime I get up I feel so gaah.
It is so cold here. I love it. Kinda extreme. Oh I did Senni's hair yesterday. For being the first time of my life doing something like that...it was great! I rule. Last night I had few pints with Eeva and Barry in cosmic comic cafe. Eeva had one polish female at her place via hospitality club. Magda was a great momin fan and excited that I <3 Kasia Kowalska! Im soooo happy! I love Kasia! I love poland for matter of fact. Gotta go there for a visit someday. Im sure we'll be in touch...Now - shower and on my way to school.
torstai, tammikuu 19, 2006 |
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tiistai, tammikuu 17, 2006
I dont know. I still feel a bit freaky about trying to find my place in this life again. I feel uninvited in my own home, I feel like I have no social life. Thought I've been exausted after schooldays that I've ran home and stayed inside...
Babysteps.
tiistai, tammikuu 17, 2006 |
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perjantai, tammikuu 13, 2006
Week since my life begun
Oh yeah. Week.
This goddamn blogger system have been pissing me off for few days. Dunno what's going on, if nuttin'! Im a bit confused about this presidental election thang that is going on in Finland at the moment. I should go on give my word in Sunday, but somehow I feel that I will leave an empty piece of paper. That is a point of view too. But I will go, if I dont - I have nothing to say in next years.
School have been very interesting. I love the idea of studying and I've been doing some work. Tho, Im having stress about Kela's way of handling things. I dont know what to do. I dont know what will happend. Im broke and I should pay bills and eat at the moment. I should buy stuff to school too.
Weekend. Tomorrow Senni, Eka and I celebrate our 10 years of friendship. <3
Yeah, btw I changed the look of my Livejournal.
perjantai, tammikuu 13, 2006 |
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keskiviikko, tammikuu 11, 2006
Rrrright.
You need love.
You are a pretty normal, well-rounded person
that just craves that fairy tale love where you
will be swept off your feet and live happily
ever after. Chances are that you fantasize or
dream about it so much that you either see all
the guys/girls as unromantic or you tell
yourself that anyone could be your soulmate.
You long to have someone by your side and you
want to give back on the romance part too, not
just give.
What Do You Need in Your Life? [dark pics]
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time in school have been nice. Im motivated. Yesterday I had job interview which was very interesting and I have high hopes about it! Today its been raining like in autumn, seems like its spring. Im depressed. I want white white white snow! Lotsa of it like in middle of Finland. This southern Finland winter is slowly killing me.
Today after school I came home and like in same minute that I arrived inside Jussi called me; "Come out, come to city we have to meet you gotta aargh!". Sure. Changed clothing and went to have few cups of coffee to Koulu. He have sold everything, left everything behind and moving studying to London in day after tomorrow. Gonna miss him. Great fellah, gotta visit him soonish. Anyway, after that I visited in post office and mum called me that this one jeans store has great sale. We went to peek around and it started a major shopping! Jussi started madly to search new clothes for his new life and I was his little helper. It was kinda fun. Stylist. Then I went to see Epa and Barry in cosmic comic cafee. Eeva had this Zack (or something like that, didnt catch his name), backpacker from Canada who was staying at her place via hospitality club. Great fellah. There was this Wales guy also in the table so we had some jolly chat for hours. Then it was still raining madly and I walked home before 11pm. LONG DAY. Im tired and feel like I want to stay home for day just to be alone. To look around and think. To put some words in a paper and create. Do stuff that I've should done ages ago. Write lyrics. Emails. Sleep. Also...part of me want to stay in bed with someone for days and never woke up from a dream. Damn that this life sucks sometimes.
keskiviikko, tammikuu 11, 2006 |
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tiistai, tammikuu 10, 2006
For a year I've been having a major unability to cook anything. Some stuff at hour sergeant kitchen at armybase but nothing more than noodles and meat. Now Im having a bliss in kitchen again. <3
When does this start to feel like I fit in again?
tiistai, tammikuu 10, 2006 |
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maanantai, tammikuu 09, 2006
Monday morning mourning
Urgh, it seems that this fog will never leave Turku behind. At friday my servise in finnish airforce ended.
And I still cannot regall that its all over. Im so use to have few days here and there off and going back that I havent got it yet that its over, huh. I already miss all the friends...Nothing Anyway about my weekend - more later.
I woke up at 7am to get myself ready for school today. Slow relaxing time with coffee etc. Ok first of all, we dont have light in our bathroom, I need to lit lotsa candles to get my morning shower. Im neurvous. From army to make-up school and just two days off between. Life's grazy.
maanantai, tammikuu 09, 2006 |
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torstai, tammikuu 05, 2006
Aika iloinen ett� jotain on tiedossa. Sisko ja Eka innostu jotain s��t�� ja pojat <3 n�ytt�is olevan koko posse l�h�ss� huomenna ulos. Jopa Jari joka tarvii aina erikseen iltavapaa hakemuksen vaimokkeeltaan ja ei k�y ikin� en�� ulkona! Olen otettu. Katsotaan mit� huomisesta saa aikaiseksi mutta lupaan ottaa n�tisti ja olla onnellinen. Maanantaina alkaa koulu ja tiistaina ty�harjoittelu. T��ll� on kuoleman tyls�� kun odottaa vaan p��sy� hem hem hem. One year of this behind - great times, lotsa great people and learning new things, experiences...I wouldnt change a day away. Thank ya all!
torstai, tammikuu 05, 2006 |
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Huomenna tj0 ja ei miti� suunnitelmia. Aeka masentavaa. Eik�s nyt pit�isi olla megaparaatit ja torvet soida etc? tuun varmaan junalla kotia aamusta ja tampereella ainakin junaa odottaessa juon tuopin yksin sumuisessa kulmakapakassa puhallellen nollia miettien "t�ss�k� se oli?".
torstai, tammikuu 05, 2006 |
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tiistai, tammikuu 03, 2006
Im losing my mind here cause I have nothing to do and we only have 3 days left. This is madness. I thought these days will never arrive.
tiistai, tammikuu 03, 2006 |
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maanantai, tammikuu 02, 2006
We luv Katamari - yes we do!
Argh ahdistaa - We <3 Katamari peli� n�ytt�is l�ytyv�n jostain mutta mist�p� irrottaa se 60e yht�-�kki�? Nowhere...sit�paitsi nyt on pakko saada jostain da Katamari Damacy. Menin pitk�st� aikaa ebayn sivuille ja siell�h�n tietysti l�ytyisi mutta...
Oon just silleen kaikki tai ei miti�. Pakko yritt�� nyt omm omm. Epist�!
maanantai, tammikuu 02, 2006 |
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How I truly hate mondays
Goddamn this all is making me neurvous. I have no plans or what so ever for friday and no one knows what to do. Ppl are going to Jyv�skyl� and Tampere. It seems that Im going to Tampere. We get out very early so Im just dont know what to do. Meet ppl at Tampere and taking train to home at evening seems like a plan...SIGH.
This last week here is making me grazy. We where suppose to have a homegoing flight today but weather is so awful that they skipid�veinau. :(( Thought it stopped snowing and clouds are moving away. ARGH dont know.
Tomorrow we have some stupid lessons or something. Nothing really. Only change to go to have a evening off but no one is really not buying it after new years partying. At wednesday we might have something stupid too and Im biting my head off soon. ARGH. I wish I could have a lift home from gate at friday morning, friends with cold beer and good cigar. good music. Celebration. But no...
One helluva day of my life is arriving and its not going to be anything? I dont want it so!! BOHOO.
maanantai, tammikuu 02, 2006 |
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