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maanantai, elokuu 29, 2005
Eek. Im having terrible RUSH to catch a train. Need to go to shower and evvvrything but anyways. I've been flooding pictures here lately so I added some very new ones in to my livejournal!! CHECK 'EM OUT!!
maanantai, elokuu 29, 2005 |
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Gaah, I found some extremely funny pictures on the forums I idle in. This one maybe makes some ppl sad but I laugh my ass off. And here some super duper cutines oh!
The owls are not what they seems.
maanantai, elokuu 29, 2005 |
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sunnuntai, elokuu 28, 2005
Sentimental sunday
I started to watch pictures that I've took in this summer. I've been extremely lazy to put 'em online so after some time ... From Majohajo camp with newrecruits.
Me at tent.
My groups tent
Few weeks ago I was spending longer weekend at Homehome in Korholanm�ki. It was such a great time with Daddy-O and my stepmother Virpi. I've been missing them all greatly and I had such a relaxing weekend with eating and drinking too much, watching movies, sleeping...Anyway, finally got great picture about the house. Its old village school from 1920...
It was great weather and one night suddenly rain ended and world turned to pink.
Of course I took lotsa pictures about the cats and dogs. I have to put these ultimate cutie pie pics of doggies here. Lady's and gents, let me introduce you Laku and Aatu.
On my way back to Halli from Kajaani again sky was amazing. Took some pictures from the train...
Few weeks ago I went to party with friends. Had a nice night which we spend wildly dancing etc. Me drunk.
Sigh. Listening Bj�rk. Its raining outside. I should go and buy some empty cd's where I can burn some music and pictures. Im tired even thought I slept a lot last night. Im having little flu but even still Im planning to go out tonight to Serafina's housewarming/bday party event. Dunno really. Soonish I go to Johanna's 'puter and download all the new pictures from the camera. New new new! I had a great friday, I should write about it too...and last week. Basic training sequel is over new thursday and all the fellows of mine leave Halli. Bohoo. I will miss them greatly. This have been the greatest time of my military serving and its almost over. Then I get back to weather station all alone boring days and nights with same shit for 4months. Nothing REAL to do. No action. Sniff. < / whine > ;)
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maanantai, elokuu 22, 2005
Dont let me lose this dream
What a highly confusing weekend. Back here.
Jokseenkin aivan loppu. Takana p�ivi� t�ynn� syv�� j��t�v�� j�nnityst�, raivokasta kunnianhimoa ja halua jostain jota ei v�ltt�m�tt� pysty tajuamaan ja unettomia �it� josta pahin oli viime y�. En nukkunut silm�yst�k��n. Olin silminn�hden huojentunut p��stess�ni porttien sis�lle. Kaikki hullut ajatukset porttien ulkopuolelle. Rauha. Tekemist�. T�n��n koko p�iv�n suunnitellut taistelijantutkintoa joka on huomenna (alokkaiden p-kautta en�� viikko j�ljell�, yhyy...pojat kasvanut isoksi. My work is almost over!) ja ti-ke ollaankin vaellusmarssilla, nukutaan taivas alla, kalastetaan(?) ja valmistetaan safkat trangialla etc. Lomia hakemaan vaan ja suunnitelemaan. Ei uskalla ajatella miti� eteenp�in. Baby steps ja hyvin n�yr�n�. Olen pettynyt silti itseeni ja koen itseni ep�onnistuneeksi viikonloppuna. En pystynyt antamaan sit� mit� oikeasti olen ja jolla olen riisunut kaikki aseista. Se mit� parhaiten osaan. Halusin niin paljon jotakin, ett� kadotin t�ysin itseni hallinnan josta tuli j�rjet�nt� shaibaa mutta kiit�n jotain suurta siit�, ett� jotain ainakin on n�hty sill� tie on auki jonnekkin. Ha. �er. Ei jaksa mietti�. Ei jaksa ajatella. Keskityt��n nyt vaan johtaja suorituksiin. ;)
Mun uusi p�� on magee! Gotta put some pictures of my new hairdo here when I get home in weekend!! :D
maanantai, elokuu 22, 2005 |
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keskiviikko, elokuu 17, 2005
Need a little help from my friends
Its been hectic in a way. Im tired and having slight cold and in weekend (when others go to Camp - Im having a weekend off! Bwahahahah!!) I need to be ok and sing. I've lost my voice. Argh. I've spend two days out in pouring rain and cold hard rain watching privates running around and digging mines. Sigh. :) But good thing about airforce, we are having some huge rehersals going around - lotsa Hawks at the sky all the time. beautiful. Otherwise its been great fun, lotsa playing around with fellow groupleaders, we are acting like kids, sword fights with woodsticks, never ending laughter about EVERYTHING and ... its just great fun. Im already sad about loosing all of them after basictraining sequel when all of them leave somewhere else.
I've started to enjoy about this. A lot. I remember my own basictraning sequel which was mental unsureness about myself and I was so much weaker than nowadays. Then AUK was great fun but now - I enjoy about camps (even with 24/7 rain and haste), days at woods...everything. I sorta thing have I lost my mind. I find myself sitting on a landmine box and thinking how happy I am. How beautiful nature is while autumn is getting near. How much great ppl I have around. How much time in a day I spend on laughing. I feel manical :D
Also I want to go home and spend time in my new room, with my friends and just AWAY from army. Just think something else. Enjoy my life. 50% of both sides in harmony. Im sad that I have to start in weatherstation again cause Im best with training and being around with ppl. AAARGH Im tired. I need to do SO MUCH tonight and tomorrow but at 4pm tomorrow - Im off to Turku! Haa. Friday morning - haircut and new color! FAB! Some luxury in my life as a woman.
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sunnuntai, elokuu 14, 2005
Selfpictures from Ruisrock
Posing schaisse at middle of the night.
sunnuntai, elokuu 14, 2005 |
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Summer evening
Old pictures from midsummer evening at weather station. Natural look.
On my way to shower. Lotsa have happend lately, spend weekend at homehome Korholanm�ki and then week at training camp. Im massively excausted and hard week ahead too, I've lost my voice and I just would love to sleep for a week. Thought - weekend went fast, at friday I came home at evening, had one beer and slept for ages. Then yesterday I spend at shopping, cleaning places (putting my room together, its quite nice now, I think my room is fab!!) and waiting ppl to show up. Johanna is back in Finland and we decided to ask friends here to see trip pictures and etc. So Jani, Pasi, Maria, Miiu, Tiiu, Eeva, Mikko and Maukonen where here ... Nice! Bottle of wine, sangria, beers and then we went to a nightclub. They played all the songs I remember from my teenager years so we danced wildly for HOURS. It was magalomanicly fun! Met other friends and chatted about Don Rosa comics. Had chinese. Got kissed. (woo!) And then went to sleep. Im tired, sligly hangoverish but oh - I love my new room, I love the fact that I get back in Turku at thursday and all the others leaves to camp! Bwahahah!!! HAHAH. Gosh, Im such a bitch but I have a very good reason to be at vacation at next weekend. We'll see...Anyway, now to shower >>
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keskiviikko, elokuu 03, 2005
Tyhm�, laiska ja saamaton
On rankkaa olla ajava ryhm�njohtaja. Yleens� hommat jaettu hyvin, ettei ole tarvinnut kenenk��n yksin sykki� mutta t�n��n joutunut (ja eilen mostly) hoitaa kaiken yksin. Aika uupelo. Huomenna vala. Sitten lomille. Joutuu odottamaan vuoden junaa ja kajaanissa vasta joskus X aikaan y�st�. No, onneksi on p�iv�� pidempi loma niin voi relata. Sunnuntaina hirvee s��t�minen ett� p��sen Tampereelle tahi Jyv�skyl��n ja niiss�kin joutuu sitten odottamaan vuoden. Joko menen 14 jotain junalla kajaanista, odotan iisalmessa n m��r�� ja tampereella monta tuntia. Tai saan kyydin iisalmeen jotenkin ja sielt� l�hden ennen 18 ja olen jkl siten ett� ootan vajaa pari tuntia. Huoh.
Its sunny after weeks of almost nonstop rain. I can feel autumn coming along. Tomorrow "kids" have a private vow. Then Im off Homehome to Kajaani for a weekend. Happy. Johanna and Mikko are back in FInland too tomorrow. I miss them. Its been awfuly quiet without Johanna around.
I've been having huge brainstorms inside my silly head lately. Its getting better. Im taking a look all over myself and my life with angry eye and try to get things work. I've lost my social life and I need to get it back. Slowly. In 4 weeks Im no longer group learder, I get back in weather station, I get off at weekends, life is getting slow and easy and past time in army will be mostly boring. Now its hard hard hard work and Im all exausted every evening. So much to do. But its been a time and I have a great group to lead. Good guys (and few girls). They have humour and still when I high my voice they obey everything I say and try harder every time I ask it. And most of the time I dont even have to do it. Extremely motivated and fun bunch of ppl who dont whine about "bohoo My clothes are wet" or about little things that makes leaders pissed off. 4 hard weeks ahead and then my work is done and all I can do is pray that I've done something well. ;)
Summers last barbeque & pool party is in this weekend and Im in Kajaani. bohoo. Well...you can have everything dont cha?
Im broke. 1.50e in my bank account and I will spend next week in woods. No money to buy any goodies or tuna fish. It will be a hard camp for me and privates. Lack of sleep, lotsa training, nightly fights against other groups and so on...no longer chill out happy camp and sleeping at tent - everything is more like if there's a real thing going on. Gryaahahaha...XD "H�LYTYYYS!!!11"
Gaah.
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tiistai, elokuu 02, 2005
El�m� jatkuu loputtomasti kuin sade
Niin...sataa vett� kuin esterin takamuksesta. Kaatamalla jo monettako tuntia. M�rk� ja v�synyt tst koulutuksen my�t� josta sainkin kiitosta kun sykin ihan hulluna. On mukava huomata, ett� itse saamani koulutus on asteen tasokkaampaa kuin mit� t��ll� annetaan. S��li vain, ett� sekin on vajaata sill� p��asiakseni olen keskittynyt vain s��hommiin ja toiseksi - siit� on niin paljon aikaa ja t��ll� tehd��n kaikki v�h�n eri tavalla. Jokatapauksessa kiitosta tuli.
Ensi vkl kajaaniin. Vala torstaina morteilla ja pit�isi jotenkin p��st� junaan puolelta p�ivin. Menn��n jonnekkin j�ms�nkoskelle tms paikkaan jonka olemassa oloa en edes tied� saatika miten sielt� p��sisin lomille ja kolmanneksi MISS� SE ON EDES! Argh. Ellen saa hommia sujumaan ja j�rk�tty� olen torstaina joskus ennen puolta y�t� kajaanissa...V�sytt�v��. Joutuu odottamaan kahdeksasta vartin yli yhteentoista sitten lomakyyti� t�nne. Ja joutuu sunnuntaina jo l�hte�m��n vajaa kolmelta. Huoh. V�sytt�v�� todellakin.
Olen ollut jokseenkin v�h�n sekaisin viimeisen viikon. Nyt alkaa aivoissa helpottamaan kun tein muutaman asian itselleni selv�ksi ja nukuin p��lle, kuuntelin musiikkia ja huusin morteille. Olen miettinyt aivan liikaa, murehtinut ja huolehtinut ja sitten purkautuu ihan ihme muodoissa ihan sellaisille joille se ei kuulu. Tunneihmisen� ved�n liian vahvasti joskus p�� edell� jonnekkin ilman, ett� tajuan sit� edes itse. Sitten pit�� olla jarruttelemassa kun tajuaa, ett� hei hui Lotta, relaas v�h�.
Yst�v� puhui j�rke� mutta mink� pitk�aikaiselle intuitiolle voin ja l�mm�lle. S��li vain, ett� se on yksipuolista. Sekin viel�, ett� olen syv�sti joskus haavoittunut, ett� nyt sitten nuoleskelen jo valmiiksi haavoja kun kehittelen yliv�syneen� kauhukuvia ja raivoa ihmist� kohtaan kun kuulen h�nen puhuneen minusta jotain yhteiselle yst�v�llemme. Raivoa, aargh samallainen paska kuin muut. Ja sitten rauhoitun ett� Hei duh, ajattele nyt v�h�n toisella tapaa. Kuin kaksi Lotta taistelisi kesken��n. Hupaisaa.
Pime�� ja sataa viidett� tuntia KAATAMALLA. Ei tunnu en�� miss��n. Ei todellakaan.
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