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sunnuntai, hein�kuu 28, 2002

Came home awhile ago...like 20mins. Tired. Happy, but tired. A bit confused and I have no idea, that what time is it, what day is it, or am I really home...So I'll write you more later. Must say, that I had a great fun and that's why I dont have any voice left at the moment, haha ;)
sunnuntai, hein�kuu 28, 2002 | | |

perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002

Gosh Im tiiired. Its quite sunny now, I think I need to put sunglasses on...I didnt have time to take a nap, I feel soo sleepy. Zzz. But in any minute, Mika will come and pick me up. Hee I can hardly wait to get to meet everyone...Have a nice weekend everyone. I try! :))
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

One day I flyyy away...
Listening Moulin Rouge Soundtrack, eating little snack. I went to store and bought something, mostly lollipops (!?)...But Im sure I'll survive thru this camp. Im sure.
Warm but cloudy still. Im almost packed. I must take a nap, Im so neurvous (I dont know why!) already...
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

shower, almost packed (dunno which kind of weathers we will have so I had to take both - light and warm clothes), tired as hell, on my way to store and then something little to eat and waiting...I changed the look of my gbook finally. When you get inspiration to do page, its like buying a new pair of shoes or something. Same kind of feeling and you know that it suits you. Haha. Philosophy, righty!
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

Why In earth I feel so laaazy?
Its same kind of weather than everyday in this week. Now its sunny, now its not...windy and quite warm. Im already ready to go to sleep again. and I just realized that I need to show vacuumcleaner to this place before or after Cygnus. Im not sure should I do that before? Which means, now. Gaah. Lazyyy. I just did the dishes, made a list what I need to pick from the store;
-Something to drink (beer, cider?)
-Noodles
-Sausage for barbeque
-Something...

So I really dont know what to get. I have one bottle of vishy/soda in the fridge, I think I take it with me. I also take some bread...

Im so eager to meet everyone. I've skipped that summer camp twice cause I've been at Kajaani always when Cygnus have been held somewhere. and then I've regret that I missed it. Now Im really going. Woo. Mika is picking me up at 14.00, so I have plenty of time. I have to take a nap if I get everything done until 1pm.

My folks are at Kajaani. I wonder did they have fun last night. Im sure they went to party with theyre friends. In a way I wish I could have a change to be there too. I miss everyone there. I miss Malla. Virpi and Dad. I dont have saldo at my phone, so Its impossible to know what is going on there. I think Dad is at Lieksa Brassweeks. Its his summer thingie number one! I hope he gets a lot of great gigs there and stories to tell. I wonder how my strawberry yard is? I left it there with half fresh strawberries and almost made a list how to check it everyday etc. Its my darling, Im very proud of it. In a way Im use to it...I mean - living in two places, in a way. When Im there, I miss here (but not much, which I wonder), when Im here I miss there. Idea with it must be, that when Im there, I know that I can leave when ever I want to, when I get enough of everyone. But when Im here, I just think that Bohoo why cannot I be there. Fact is that when Im there is not happyhappyjoyjoy all the time. But Im save. I have all those ppl around me, ring that takes care of me even tho it doesnt look like it. Here...Im quite alone. I have friends, pals and I know a lot of ppl (sometimes I think, that too much.), but no "ring". I dont have anyone who would pick me up from middle of no where if I scream. I have ppl who say that they would. But I never count on it, cause I know. OK, enough depressing babble. I think that getting circle and life in Turku rolling takes more than 6years which one I've spend around meeting ppl. Hehe. With baby steps, righty? :)

Mmm...looks like it could start to rain. Booring.
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

Sunny morning.
I wonder why in earth its so hard to get my eyes open. Uuh.
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

Oh this Nouvelle - Samba primitivo makes me feel so good. Dark and quiet, but I dont know. I always love to listen bossa late at night when its dark. For late summer nights, or early autumn nights...its perfect. I noticed that Im use to be alone here most of the time. I've started to like my own company. Still, it would be more fun to go around town if ppl would notice me when Im waving like grazy...Hehe. I wonder. Oh but tomorrow - long day. I've been sitting at irc chatting with ppl who are already at Cygnus. I have so much to do tomorrow! Eek. OK, I have to hit my head on the pillow now, or else I'll never get everything done at morning. Laters then.
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

new layot! Haha!
perjantai, hein�kuu 26, 2002 | | |

torstai, hein�kuu 25, 2002

I came home like 15mins ago. Beautiful night. Wasnt really jolly to bike home, its windy as hell. Anyway...now some cooking. I had horrible chrise with myself before I left home from medieval market..."Will I stay and have a great time till midnight all the actors/Korte" or "Naah, I go to watch tv, sit front of the computer, cook and idle for the rest of the night" - And you see what I did? Gaah, but I think its better, I need to cook, pack things for tomorrow and go to sleep early, cause I have to wake up vvvery early, go to buy foods for weekend and so on. I already bought a bottle of yummy red wine (I was planning to buy something cheaper but...), one of my favorites. I havent found it from Alko in ages, but now. Senorio de los Llamos 98. Uuuaa I can hardly wait to get it open tomorrow ;)

But now - cook.
torstai, hein�kuu 25, 2002 | | |

I away again very half cloudy, sunny, windy day. I shall take my bike soonish and hit the road to city. Medieval market, then I have to buy a bottle of wine from Alko and...All things. Then come back home to cook something, pack things and possibly go sleep earlier and wake up at friday, ready to meet everyone, happy and sappily. now Im just Zzzz.
I dont know why, but yesterday I met too much bugs in my apartment. few worms, one spider and one something ugly. Yuck. Ok - Coffee.
torstai, hein�kuu 25, 2002 | | |

Im going to kick every butt which havent mention theyre name in my oh-so-jolly gbook! I mean it! Roar! Oh make my day...
torstai, hein�kuu 25, 2002 | | |

I wonder why. I wonder why. I wonder why I wonder.
torstai, hein�kuu 25, 2002 | | |

Quite amazing is, that I met a lot of my pals today. Those, which I havent seen in year or so, noticed me with huge yell 'Lottaaaaah!!! *Hugehug*' and I almost felt that Im huge star or so. Haha. Nice to meet old pals, cannot deny it. But then...ppl that I've met usually more didnt even notice me at all?! How in earth? Im not that different? My hair look is just a same, but color a bit lighter...I went to Teini after medieval festival and walked around searching for Korte who was acting in there and just ended his job for the day...There was all the pals from Apteekki, ppl I've worked with and have a great time and laughs...some other which I would love to have a chat with...Ok after I've spend so long times away middle of nowhere I turn back to this country side girl who never dare to say anything to anyone, so I get this horrified feeling that I have to get myself outta here, and run away. Then I went to read book to riverside for half an hour, started to walk to center of the city to catch a bus, until I met my old choir pal who gave me a phone so I could call to Korte and ask where he was. No answer. but as soon I got Pirita to buss and with depressed substance went around of all these old part of city of Turku, suddenly after awhile Pirita called me that go to Teini, there Korte is. So there I went. but all these ppl I know still didnt knew that I was I...I dont know. Why In hell I got these 'torikammo' thingies on me? I met so much ppl today. I went around and heard "Lotta! Lotta? Hiii Lotta?! :)) Lottaaah" and I just smile and shitchat forawhile...of course is was sooo great to see old friends like Salla, first person I met when I moved to Turku years ago, and so on...but...I dont know. at the end, it was horrible to go around alone. Nice time I had with Petrus, but when he left, I was totally numb. But after I met Korte and hooked up with his company, I had so jolly time and good laughs that now I really need some sleep...haha few beers to empty tummy, you know...;-> So white cheese and some cookies (Im soo lazy to cook) and sleep. yay. It started to rain. So maybe I add some tea to this, hehe ;)
torstai, hein�kuu 25, 2002 | | |

keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002

What a day!! First medieval festival with Petrus and after 8pm afterparty with all the actors in that...I got ride home from Korte's sister, thank god. Nice evening, I really enjoyed myself. I tell more later, came in like 5minuter ago...now something to eat.
keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002 | | |

Alllright...I would love to know will it be rainy or not. Its very stormy outside and grey, but...What do you know?

Morning glory - bread, glass of juice and too much coffee. Tried to make important phonecalls without any success. Im worried about next months rent, but I try to get someone answer my calls tomorrow then. I hate these stupid paper works and such.

Im collecting list of a songs I want to sing on stage in one project Im working on. Blues, R 'n B, Soul thingie. There are bunch of songs, but its hard to draw a line between soul and blues, will all those fit together and so on. Well, I have time. I wish I had a river, which I could skate on away...

Im thinking new desing to this diary soonish. That old one is from spring. Im very very sick of it already. haha. Lazy bitcha, I know. So sue me. Now - Shower.
keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002 | | |

I woke up 20mins ago. My alarmclock was on at 10am, but I closed it. Luckily Camilla (old dormitory and student friend from J�rvenp��) woke me up with her phone call. She's found a new bf, and wanted to share that information with me. Jolly good.
Its windy again. I should make some coffee, get myself awake and start to move my bud! I have so much things to do and I must cook something before I hit the road to the city. Hopefully it wont start rain. This tiredness which I feel, is quite depressing...But next night I'll sleep long then. I used my night and early morning laughing my ass off with my favorite book "Surely You're Joking, Mr Feynman"...His a hilarious fellow. I mean, he was. Oh well, gotta go to make some coffee...Yawn.
keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002 | | |

just before I was closing this 'puter, it started to blow some air into this apartment from window. and in same second my song Koop's "summer sun" started to play. Sigh. Hey summersun you love is devine, never before I met you kind, and now you're mine...oh yeah darlings, how groovy. Nighty nite.
keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002 | | |

Sigh. Im not tired. I should still go to sleep. I've ate too much salmiac. Its dark. Very strange. I havent use to this darkness. I feel quite strange. Alone, in this dark apartment, radio playing smooth jazz, dark and oh so beautiful outside...orange lights at the yard makes lines to my walls. Moments which I dont want to lose, which still goes by so fast and I just wish that I could get something from this, something to remember. Something inspiring. Im full of energy to do things, but all I do is just floating, there past few days. I've been missing everything up North and wondering how life goes by. God, how I miss everyone there. Mostly I miss Rh Blues Band. Its kinda another family. It was great to express myself by Blues. My dream, which Raikku let me to make true. All those days filled with laughter and sunshine, inside humor we have, silly things we always do. Nobody is still at his trip, seems like I dont have cat anymore. Very sad. I wont lose my hope until Xmas. But now...I think I'll shut down this computer and think about going to bed. Long day ahead. But god, how I love this late summer nights...warm sea breeze...
keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002 | | |

I took my old old old james jeans, and make 'em cool highwater thouses with nicey twist - little jewels around. Nice. Kinda indian bazar stuff I must say...But Im happy.
Should go to sleep. Tomorrow I have a long day. Ppl are going to Cygnus at Thursday, but I got a ride for Friday. Boooring. Oh well, that's how it goes. Hope, that I wont miss any great happy action.
keskiviikko, hein�kuu 24, 2002 | | |

tiistai, hein�kuu 23, 2002

Intuition. Insight. Emotions. Feelings.
Take the quiz.
Oh yeah. Water. Now I feel thirsty.
tiistai, hein�kuu 23, 2002 | | |

Oh righty. What a weather. I woke up at afternoon when my windows closed themselfs with huge bang. After it its been very stormy. Im very worried about my friend who is at sea with his wooden boat with his whole family. Hope they've found a place to stay, and hopefully boat keeps water, cause its so rainy. But in a way I love weather like this. When Im not on the sea.

I stayed up to 5am last night. Then I went to bed and straight away huge sprider where walking on me. Gosh. It took like 1h after it that I falled asleep. I was so shocked! ;) In a way its nice to be home again. Im getting use to it. Thought, I really do miss back to North. All those people and Blues. I tell you more about that later. I visited my favorite place Apteekki yesterday after 1.5month brake (cause I havent been around)...and it was nicey, my sister and I had a nice chat and fun while backing up all the things we've done while she was at Turku and I was at north. and then we planned Cygnus - amateur astronomers summer meeting, which is in next weekend. After few years brake Im going to go there too. I've always skipped it, cause I've been at that time in Kajaani and almost always broke without money to travel. hehe...Now I got lift from Mika.

Tomorrow starts medieval Turku festival. Im really looking forward to it, cause again I've missed it in few years too - same reason, I was at Kajaani. Korte is having a role in it and I really want to see it. I go there with Petrus. We meet at 16.00, and then I maybe see Senni and Serafina (Anna have turned her name to be Serafina, officially.)...They've coming too and of course I would like to meet 'em. Show ends at 8pm, when I hooked up with Mikko and go to Teini for drinks. Nicey. But now, some groovy jazz and I enjoy this storm and rain. Where is my rain coat? I wanna go to take a walk...
tiistai, hein�kuu 23, 2002 | | |

maanantai, hein�kuu 22, 2002

Oh yeah baby! I have a new brand new gbook. Make my day and fill it with juicy text...
maanantai, hein�kuu 22, 2002 | | |

Haa! Back in Turku. I'll write more after refreshing hours of sleep, but nice to be home, quite sad I feel, already missing everybody up north...Oh well, Lots of great memories again. Yeah, rock on!
maanantai, hein�kuu 22, 2002 | | |