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keskiviikko, syyskuu 26, 2001
I write some tomorrow. now Im lazy, death tired and such. past few days have been great. and I think I never been this alive - in feeling side of me...dunno really. Oh well.
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perjantai, syyskuu 21, 2001
Ok, soon I'll be running to catch my train...then to bus and then soon Im in Turku! Woah!
I have sooo much to do there, so many ppl to meet, so many to see...so much works and hundret emails to write.
I got that new room, its a hell hole but I think I'll stand for a week or so...
I must think positively.
I must. I will ;)
OK...the thing that really pissed me off, which Sirpa told me while ago is, that those who forced us to move out and clear our rooms comes there in wednesday! not in monday!! Unfare! Bohoo!
Ok gotta run...eeek. I'll write more later, when Im at turku. sitting front of my OWN computer. *burst of happythoughts*
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torstai, syyskuu 20, 2001
I always wish that I could make THE Beautiful desing to my pages...like this one. Im hungry. My hands are cold and my phone wont work at here. Grrr. Im on my way back to my room to clean it, to pack my things, to decide what I'll leave there for a week and such. Tomorrow I'll move. Others will give me theyre plants and stuff which I have to take care off at next week. And also I will AGAIN get some fucking stranger to live with me. Sirpa (Person who takes care of our things in dormitory) were very sorry about it, she knew that I somehow wanted to have my own time at that week then. OK...so jumping around will be it. My step-mother called me while ago. She've been writing this long long letter to me which I'll get in monday or tuesday. And in monday she and dad will put me a box full of food from north!! OOh! bread..."rieskaa"...and stuff. Im glad. Nighty nite.
torstai, syyskuu 20, 2001 |
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OK...Today I'll watch candyman WooOo Its so hilarious and scary. When I was younger I watched it and I coulnt look in any mirror in year. really. It made me totally sick. LOL. Im depressed. Im happy. One of my friends broke up today, one of my friends engaged today.
While whining and waiting to get home I read and laught my ass of Red Meat...Sigh.
torstai, syyskuu 20, 2001 |
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www.flipflopflyin.com site kick ass. It made my day. Anyway...Im glad Jukka stopped by at my gbook, my phone dont really work here and I've tried to get touch with him many times in this week...I'll write mail to him today. Ok now I need to hurry to get a key to my room and then cook something, Im starving.
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keskiviikko, syyskuu 19, 2001
I forgot how much I really love this site. I use to visit there all the time but I forgot it...aww those are so cuute. In friday to Turku. Cant hardly wait.
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tiistai, syyskuu 18, 2001
I know that im not good with english, really. Today at my english class all I did was sitting in my place and trying to keep my hand up while teacher looked around all the others and kept asking 'anyone?! ehhehe anyone?'...She well knows that Im highly bored and never let me answer, well sometimes, but usually if no one says a thing, she maybe lets me answer, or does it by herself then. Soon with sappy sparkle in her eye she asks: 'Oh what about playing some BINGO!? Repeat numbers after me, one two three...' Bloody Hell. Im going to fall asleep here. And I almost usually do.
I had great time at friday. School day was over soon and everyone waved goodbye and went away at their homes. I was quite blue about it for awhile but when I started to listen Bj�rk out loud from stereo, cooked some meal and hurried to catch a train to Helsinki, I was sooo excited. And well...at 18.45 I was inside at Ateneum waiting for Janne. Ppl tried to bought tickets but they were sold out. I was happy that Janne was smart enought that he had bought ours at noon way before the show. Yay. Suddenly I saw him walking inside. How tall he was! I just stared him, felt how thrill inside me started to burst all around my body, I walked to him, watched him, started to laught, 'Damn you Janne' I said and I jumped to hug him. It was great. In that very moment I felt sorry for myself that we've been unable to see each others in ages. Almost two years?! But it didnt feel like that at all. We went to listen Groove Convention, I was flying and the gig was...it was AWESOME! I was so full of micro-orgasms when they started to play first notes. So...magical. They played two hours. It was da quality time.
Well later that night I came back here. In the train...it was full of drunken teenagers. Some very very drunken man wanted someone to talk to and of course, came to sit next to me. How nice. So we shitchatted for awhile, I so wanted to get rid of him but noo....well he told me about his life (which was story I didnt really wanted to hear, cause It was that usual story about how wife left him, took kids and how luzer he think he is and drinks.). Well at some point he asked about my life. I said something. He said that I look so pretty, I wont be the miss universum but I'll be something very great and special. I was like err thank you. Then it was my stop, I stand up 'Good life to you' and runned out from the train. And it was all dark. I was lost for a moment, but found my way to campus. It took 1h me to walk here. Usually it takes just about 10-15mins from train station...It was silent as in the crave. I came in, cooked some meal and went to sleep. I felt horrible that I really didnt know was there other student at the house...well. I had change to sleep long! Woah!
Saturday - sunday were most pleasant.
Yesterday was some kind of strange day for me. I got a change to sleep later than usually (thank god!) and I felt fresh and sappy at morning. My roommate didnt arrived in sunday so I had a change to fall asleep while her stereo system played me Chroma Key as lullaby. :) ... At sunday night I was most happy when suddenly I heard someone knocking at my door while I was reading Pride and Prejudice and drinking tea alone in the dark...There was one of the grrrlies who lives here and soon almost everyone was around me telling me about theyre weekends and boyfriends and feeling sorry for me that I had to be alone (tehee they dont know)...Oh well I watched some movie with 'em for awhile and went to sleep, but as always, I was planning to read one chapter...and I spend 2h with that book. Mr Darcy *drool*...I mean...he rocks. hehe ;)
Yesterday I was so depressed. Today Im recovering from it. Im death tired. It just hitted me like a rock from the sky that how my life has changed. I mean nothing really bad, but almost every very THE things which I had...cello lessons, Nobody, Tommy (musical. They want me to be acid queen. I maybe have to say 100% no if my teachers dont let me be away 2 weeks in shows)...
OK I stop whining here.
Senni got Anthony Daniel's signature. Coolest!
New #tolkien meet pictures
I also add pic to irc-gallery...my bad habit is that I've changed pic almost every day now ahahah...evil me but there is now new pic of me. Uniikki took it at meet weekend's sunday just after the real meet was over. Im smiling!
There are something that makes me feel butterflies. Tehee.
tiistai, syyskuu 18, 2001 |
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maanantai, syyskuu 17, 2001
Im depressed.
Just now. I was ok at day. Sun was shining.
It just hitted me too hard. Im ashamed.
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torstai, syyskuu 13, 2001
This day have been a good day. First of all, I woke up in time, 7am. I felt very sappy. I took shower and drank cup of coffee, everything without no hurry. Went to school, on time. Tadah. My head was clear and fully working when I was at classes...School ended fast. I went to library and started to read Bridget Jones's Diary which is very hilarious way to spend time. Last night I broke my back somehow, dunno really HOW but I went to sleep early. It was nice to sit at the kitchen watching telly with girlies, temptation island was horrible and still I HAD to watch it all throught and Im going to watch it next time too...Argh.
Life here is quite slowly going. Im totally broke, I dont know am I able to buy food in weekend of even see Groove Convention tomorrow night...I would love to visit somewhere...mm...well...*sigh* fuck I dont want to stay HERE all weekend! Almost everyone leave this hell hole to meet theyre friends and spending time home, cause they live so near! And those who stays has this group that has nothing to do with others cause theyre known each others so long and look very much down to us others who lives in this building. Sigh. Oh well. And then there are those who I've seen one or twice, who sit in theyre room and looks like scary puppies when they come to cook in the kitchen...They dont make a sound or leave any marks of living anywhere...
Minus parts of being here are noise. All rooms door open, every stereo trying to get theyre music louder than other and one gal-gang screaming and jumping up and down cause on of 'em got a sms from her crush. Theyre in drama line of this school so theyre artist and were just 'normal' ppl who dont deserve theyre respect. I dont give a damn but I start to get sick of this somekind of 'caste' system they've acting like all the time. Oh well. Its not my problem. Im fine like this anyway. :)
he touched
my arm
and smiled
one of these days soon : very soon
love you til then
love you til then
feel my breath
on your neck
and your heart will race
don't say no to me
you can't say no to me
i won't see you
denied
i'm sorry you saw that
i'm sorry he did it
an echo
a stain...
a stain...
i can't say no to you
i can't say no to you
say nothing
free falling
complete
I think This Bj�rk's 'an Echo, a Stain' is the most beautiful thing I've heard in ages. It makes me sob cause of pain it makes me feel, good pain, and the sadness...and all kind of feelings...It makes me So emotional, it touches me so deeply. Those lyrics are so so so full of intimacy. Ooaah. delicious.
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hum.
'In the year of the new century and nine months, from the sky will come a great king of terror in the shape of two silver birds...The sky will burn at 45 degrees. Fire approaches the great new city...In the city of York there will be a great collapse, two twin brothers torn apart by chaos. While the fortress falls the great leader will succumb...third big war will begin when the big city is burning.' Nostradamus. year 694.
hum.
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keskiviikko, syyskuu 12, 2001
Wow. Autumn is really here now. All the trees out there are yellow and leafs are dancing on the air. Its the only way to be. Some beauty around makes you feel better. Someone to hold and hug to could save everything. Bohoo. Whining.
keskiviikko, syyskuu 12, 2001 |
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BTW...you all can send me snailmail, letters, cards, fan-mails, bombs, flowers and chokolate to this addy:
Seurakuntaopisto
PK-Tyko / Lotta Rytk�nen
J�rvenp��ntie 640
04400 J�rvenp��
So Please please save meee from my oh so endless misery and send me something to cheer up me and my grey school days with your sunshine. Yeah!
keskiviikko, syyskuu 12, 2001 |
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I dont know why Im watching these pictures from net, where are ppl jumping out from wtc. Or hitted to the grond. I dont understand why ppl are making fun from it, or why cant I get it out from my head. Cannot feel anything about it. Cannot really ingnore it either.
Just check out this pic.
Yeah righty. :)
keskiviikko, syyskuu 12, 2001 |
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the day when the earth stood still...
Now Im feeling better. Life goes on. Im listening sorb from net (had to check out which versions Jukka placed online). Someone is having a computer lesson here, but I still got myself in..heheehe. OK. Its sunny from time to time. First day in ages without rain. Im somehow sick of this campus. Everyone who lives here are. There is nothing to do. Computer class and tv are only way out. Last night we had to pray. I mean, I was the only one who didnt do it. In huge circle. I just standed there and felt horrible and wanted to go outside to call everyone and to check everything from internet and talk with my friends. I think yesterday was something I cant understand never. The things that happened there, far away, are still SO close. No one knows what will happen. Bush is talking about giving back it all harder makes me feel very uncomfy. What is going to happend? Are you afraid? Im scared as shit. Inside me. Feeling hollow and quite empty. Cannot say anything.
7months goes fast.
This flu never ends.
I have to go to the city soon pick up some school stuff, food and send letter to Senni. It looks like sky is full of clouds, so I just hope that it wont start to rain...
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tiistai, syyskuu 11, 2001
Im listening [Live365]CG Communications LIVE New York City Disaster PD FD EMS[*] (NYPD LIVE POLICE RADIO) via internet and its horrible. Sigh. Im feeling so cold cold cold inside me. This is Chaos. And I cannot see why in earth some ppl can celebrate that kind of tradegy...
tiistai, syyskuu 11, 2001 |
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This is sick.
http://www.dal.net/wtc/
http://shadow.tky.hut.fi/wtc/
http://www.aliljo.net/videot/
All the information goes faster in irc. Really. Ppl are huge net that collects information...amazing somehow. I hate to be all alone right now. I hate that I cannot talk with my mother or father and folks in Kajaani. I wish I could. Well Im glad that I have irc and I can also talk to Senni, but...I need real human touch now. I want to see faces of ppl that means something to me. I hate to sit here and feel so alone. This day makes me feel so 'what did I tell you hahaha' cynic sound in my voice. I mean....I've already lost my hope for system and for human kingdom YEARS ago. First when I heard the news I was in shock. then I started to be dumn and now...I just dont care. I feel like I use to feel 24h few years ago almost all my life before I broke out from huge cynicism...but but...well...
< praxiz >"In the City of God there will be a great thunder, Two brothers torn apart by Chaos, while the fortress endures, the great leader will succumb" , "The third big war will begin when the big city is burning" - Nostradamus 1654....
I wish that I could hold someone right now.
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I'll remember this day forever.
tiistai, syyskuu 11, 2001 |
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[17:40] < Feanturi > 2 towers collapsed
[17:40] < Feanturi > another bom attack on foreign afairs
[17:41] < Feanturi > a car bomb
[17:41] < Car`aHurt > US declares war on Pakistan...both nations has nuclear fucking weapons
[17:46] < raz > Euronews reports part of Pentagon collapses.
[17:46] < Aiwendil > one just crashed in washington
[17:47] < Feanturi > i can't listen to this
[17:47] < DarkFiz > rumors again: red code and defcon 3
[17:47] *** Feanturi has quit IRC (Even death isn't free, it costs us our lives)
[17:47] < Aiwendil > Ferin: just = recently.. (really old word, have disappeared from english)
[17:47] < raz > In west bank people are celebrating this.
[17:48] < Marevan > Fuck them
[17:48] < Marevan > I can't believe that
[17:48] < raz> I wonder how much people will die.
[17:48] * Car`aHurt cant stand this
[17:48] < raz > How many died in Hiroshima?
[17:49] < gnurgle > Much more. :)
etc etc.
Funny thing I had no a slidest glue about this before I came to irc. I was sleeping after school. My phone is black. I dont know thing. Whose school is in panic. Whole irc is broadcasting news for me, my sister is irc'ing with me. Im so fucking scared. Im so so so so so so...help me God. I wish my friends who are in America are ok. I wish that no wars starts now. I wish that I could talk with mother, Senni, few of my friends, ekh, Mare...etc.etc. Everyone in this class are in fucking panic and I didnt know anything...
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maanantai, syyskuu 10, 2001
Ahahaha This night at irc have been so hilarious. Maybe it is that Im missing everyone so goddamn much and how I know theyre way of humor when they say:<
[21:51] < |Eowyn| > does anybody chat in here?!
[21:51] < Kinnerean > no
[21:51] < |Eowyn| > well
[21:51] < Kinnerean > we don`T chat
[21:51] < |Eowyn| > ;)
[21:51] < Varis >lots of pipe smokers today
[21:51] < |Eowyn| > what do u do then?
[21:51] < in_addr6 > mm, sounds lovely
[21:52] < Kinnerean > we just stand against the wall and look cool
[21:52] < Varis > eowyn: cybersex0r and warez ofcoz
maanantai, syyskuu 10, 2001 |
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Pulp Fiction is on tv tonight. Woo.
Im so alone. < WHINE > Ahahah I miss my friends irl.
maanantai, syyskuu 10, 2001 |
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What is your Glam rock name?
I got the huge great fun from that, and others who are in this class room just stares me cause...well...ehehe I need to learn to laugh without any voice. Use to be front of the computer in the room just alone without any other ppl. hahah. ;)
maanantai, syyskuu 10, 2001 |
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Ok. Here I am. At the school in the computer class. Wow, Eka, if you read this, this place is THE computer class we stared into when we was in sttng. And also...well...hehe there is that camera over there too...heheh
This is my second day here. First real school day. its ok. Yesterday when I came here, I started to get along with everyone right from that moment. Im like that. No huge culture shocks or stuff. I just totally miss everyone. First school day was awful in a way. Heheh. This is like home now. Horrible in a way how easy its for me to go somewhere in from that very moment Im like I've been there forever.
Im sick. I was sick all weekend. This flu is horrible.
I miss Senni. Big Bad Voodoo Daddy is on my headphones all the time. This internet connection is fast, but I cannot still listen any sorb songs here. Anyway, #tolkien meet was fine and dandy, even tho I was sick. I had so fun, the coming here didnt feel that horrible after it. Anyway, here is some pictures which Raz took. I think theyre first ones that are online.
Ooaah Im so glad that Im able to write this daily from here!! Wooah! Its SO great to be online. Wooh ;)
Ok check out this picture about me -> last saturday -> me right after Sauna...but hey now...laters.
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perjantai, syyskuu 07, 2001
Gaah. I think I'll sneeze my brains out soon...
Btw, right now I cannot read emails from my recular addy, so If you have something important for me to say, email me to sailorgennie@iobox.fi! I'll notify about my address thingies later on then...
perjantai, syyskuu 07, 2001 |
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Senni, If you read this...
hahah I know that you'll read this. When will we see again? I wanna listen muzic with ya and bable about everything. Yesterday we didnt got a change. Hee...
perjantai, syyskuu 07, 2001 |
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Woah. this connection is over too fast...eek. Well I think I can handle it anyway. So Im at Tampere now, sneezing all the time...I hate it, cause I just slept one night window open and now this. Its unfare...Some good music is on, which I dont really know what it is. Sun is shining and Im savely here after trip from city to here in Marevan's car. Eek.
Ekh, Im so sorry I didnt make it today. I had...very hectic day. Im so sorry.
Its been raining all day!! Argh. I dont like autumn at all right now. Just rain rain rain endlesly. So in few days Im in j�rvenp��. Funny thing is that today I heard that Im having roommate, who's name is Jenna or something like that, she's from turku too and she was at same course at that school last year. I dont even feel at all worried about to meet some stranger and living with her next 7months of my life. Im too...dunno what. Oh well.
Im totally in to Big Bad voodoo daddy. They kick ass more than anything. Woo. When I listen 'em I cannot hardly stay at my seat. Heheh, power music, just what I need. Ok I have nothing to say right now so....laterssss...
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torstai, syyskuu 06, 2001
Aah. Listening Big Bad Voodoo Daddy from headphones and I cannot almost keep myself on this chair, cause I want to dance dance dance yeah baby!! :))
This is brilliant music. Ooh my I want to make this kind of music. I need to play this cd to Jukka and so on. Woah. This in swing groove heaven! Ooh my! :)))
Ekhowl have started to write his online diary again. great. And the first things he did was wrote something so nice about me..."Hmm, tomorrow I might meet Gennie again. That would be extremely nice. She's a true friend of mine, with who I can be really me. And I can trust her. That's beautiful. To be able to trust. And I hope it's vice versa, too. I want to be trustworthy. Especially for my loved ones. Oh my god, Joga is almost making my tear out. Ahh..." He found the thing from the Bj�rk's music now, so Im going there tomorrow with my Bj�rk cd's so he can rip 'em for himself. I just told today to my mum that how dear ekhowl to me is. How I can be 100% true myself with him, how we always have laughter about stupid things even tho our life could be in total chaos. How Im relaxed with him. Im so happy how things went thru, we talked things out and now...I could lie my life on his hands. Really. After these few years we've known eachothers we've got this friendship Im so grateful about. Yeah if your reading this, ekhie dear, your da best. =)
Damn, I wish I had Visa card or money I could order BBVD womans baby-t shirt and woo all theyre other records from internet. I SO much want to see 'em live on stage that Im waiting for Pori Jazz festival if they come next year too...in this summer I missed it. Bohoo.
torstai, syyskuu 06, 2001 |
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Im in love with my life. With everything in this very moment. Drinking coffee in my room, Bj�rk's Vespertine floating beats as my background music, its warm outside, I just went to see Senni...
Ooh I had horrible day today, in a way...I woke up very early, run to city with cello (its heavy, my neck/back is totally in pieces right now), met Eka, went to this beautiful little coffeeshop I've never been in. She bought me Mocca Latte and we sit outside under shining sun and laughed and talked. She gave me two cd's which her brother Juhana had burned me (thank you, btw.) rammstain's 'mutter' and 'sehnsucht'.
Then I went to therapy, haircut and to store. I came home and went to Senni's place. She gave me Bj�rk's 'Vespertine' and Big Bad Voodoo Daddy 'this beautiful life' records. We had nice time and then I came back home. And now Im here, I just came...Ooh and Im so happy. Tired as hell. Tomorrow I'll meet ekh at morning. Then to Tre. In saturday I'll go to #tolkien meet in helsinki, meet all of my irc friends irl. Im going to meet some of the faces I've never seen yet. Yay. Anyway, I'll also check out the Star Wars thingie they have in Hki. Woosh.
Yesterday was day from hell too. I cannot believe how much in one day can happen. Anyway...at night I went to meet Joakim which was nice. We had nice time, I got to eat some yummy pancakes with icecream. Then I came home and sat front of the computer whole night. Ahaha. Like usually.
When I was in the bus coming home last night there was this couple, older but still extremely beautiful thai woman with finnish man...they runned in the bus and that woman seems to had so much fun. She laughed all the time. Man didnt find enought money for bus ticket and they were leaving from the bus when one man gave him that 5mk he needed. They had hilarious conversations while they were thanking each others endlesly...It made me happy to watch it. How some strangers help others. Just like that. from that it came to my mind that today when I was walking from my mothers office to my cello lesson, swearing quietly at myself that why in earth I didnt start to play flute when I was a child (it not heavy)...when one man in his saab drove next to me. He opened window and asked me that do I need help with carrying that thing? He looked ok young man, but as much I wanted to thurst this person, I said that no, I can handle it myself, thank you very much. I just smiled and walked on my way...Strange things happen every day. So it seems.
My life is going to change in few days. In next sunday I'll live in another city. Can you believe it? I cant. Right now I have to start to pack some things I need in my first two weeks. After it I come back and get more stuff when I know more about what I need. Sigh. Im not even scared, it feels like years away from me. And I only have a few days. Goddamn, why doesnt S�de call me...
Malla. I miss you. I miss you so terribly. I wish I could sit with you in the Blues cafe right now, listen Gimme some lovin' at repeat and have a good conversation. I wish that more than ever, cause I have so much to share with you. Nothing special, dont worry, just...this all. You know. I need you!! Buhuu! ;)
Woo...Ekhowl made a new homepages! Go and check it out.
I got new pictures today. I developed one film which had pictures from Rh Blues Band's gig, from summer nights at town, Nobody pictures and stuff. I had pictures at my hand, I closely stared 'em one by one and memorized everything. The smell in the forrest at late summer nights when I was there photographing sunset. The feeling when I embraced Nobody...how soft he is. I have one picture now where he looks So cute and furry and soft and huggable. Aww. I have to scan it soonish...If Im able. Anyway...Laters.
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keskiviikko, syyskuu 05, 2001
after since my folks got a glue about my hiding cooking abilities, I've
"forced" to cook dinner for 'em. As today. And I made it! Wooh! Im
the king of the wooorld! :) Its great to see, that I dont mess it all
totally, that I really can make proper delicios food. So...
today soonish in 15mins were eating Lotta's top secret chicken thingie.
(the top secret hint in it is creme) ;D
Senni, you have to taste it someday.
keskiviikko, syyskuu 05, 2001 |
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Listening Groove Convention, Punk and rain makes me moody. Somehow I adore this weather now when Im inside. I just have to forgive to our dog that soon that illusion of 'oh lovely rain' is going to fall, cause I have to go out to took doggie there to pee. Ehehhee. Outside, where its stormy as in hell. Yeah. Yippee. OK. Im feeling that Im reseaving some inspiration now, so laters.
keskiviikko, syyskuu 05, 2001 |
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Im sure that this endless rain is affecting to everything. See? Even this computer is feeling a bit lazy, dog is whining and also feeling lazy, Im feeling extremely tired and lazy. See?! Hey you up there on the clouds...give us some sunshine will ya?
keskiviikko, syyskuu 05, 2001 |
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< M a l l a >!!! =) Im glad to hear that your better. I just woke up, and I feel horrible about it, cause I planned to woke up at 10am! Argh, so my daily plans are all very late. Have to clean this messy hell hole where Im living in. Of course you can say almost everything to "Riverside", if you get a change. Tell my greets to him too. Where did you meet him then? Virpi was the thing btw which woke me up, she called me. She's driving herself mad with her work and dad is having very evil flu. Im moving to J�rvenp�� with open mind, my life is so hectic right now, that I havent got time to get paniced about it yet. I heard from radio that its been raining here over 15h in a row! Argh. I want some autumn sunshine, colorful leaves and you here. Take care and lets start to wrote letters as soon I get to know an address where I'll live. Miss you, girlie.< / M a l l a >
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tiistai, syyskuu 04, 2001
Sorb-i-tol's Tomodachi and Play it again sam came online awhile ago. There's still some songs missing, shame on mp3.com, theyre so slow nowadays. Tomodachi is my favorite song, I use to wrote it to a friend 1year ago. Its light and hazy and quite jazzy song. Go to listen it!
tiistai, syyskuu 04, 2001 |
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I wish I could do that right now.
Its raining. I've been listening sound of it hours now. I should put some music on and work. I got sms from Aki and
it made me sappy. Yesh. Tomorrow will be another freaky busy day. Not happy about it, cause I have to clean my room. I hate the idea of cleaning after spending summer doing it full time. Bah. 8)
tiistai, syyskuu 04, 2001 |
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Woo check this out, I re-desingned my blog. Woo.
tiistai, syyskuu 04, 2001 |
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Eka called me few minutes ago. She was reading Sundays Newspaper
and noticed from 'congratulation' page a little picture of our friend...
WHO IS MARRIED! I cannot belive this. Its amazing. Bride is beautiful
in the picture and...well he's hansom like always. Damn that I dont
have a change to scan that picture. Well the thing is that Im pretty
amazed! Very amazed indeed! I really hope that theyre relationship
is strong (I've met that girl few times, and I think she's nice) and will
last. =) And now I know why I havent seen them at observatory in awhile.
Hmhum...Sigh. All is full of love...?_?
Yesh. I have a tickets to Raimmstain's gig. Woo.
Im tired as hell. Last night I coudnt sleep cause I started to miss Nobody.
It was somehow horrible and somehow hilarious. It came in to my mind
that I dont remember how soft he is and how does he smell and then
it hit me like hell. I started to sob and 'bohoo I hope he dont forget
me'...that crying for a cat, for crying out loud. :P Am I pathetic, or what.
Well he's my true love. :)
And other very lovable news, Senni and Tuomas have been 2years together now.
I think that's amazing too. I somehow always amaze long and real relationships.
Maybe cause I've never got one. Maybe cause I've been so cynic always and this
makes me believe in things, slowly. And today my mother and I laughed, that in
that time when Senni have been in that relationship, I've been totally
in mess, went thru So much. And some not that good relationships. And Senni
is having beautiful home, and she's So beautiful nowadays, she shines. She's
doing day school and night school in same time, She have found her way to be
and Im soooo proud of her that I could burst to cry. Well, like I use to
say once: "Senni cannot be a bad person, cause she's MY twinsister." ;))
And I already miss her, cause
well in summer we didnt see at all, cause I was away. Now when Im here, Im gone in few days, and
she's at school. She's my identical twin anyway, we need each others. But its just 7 months.
I just wanna see all movies with her and hang around.
Ok this is a Senni-hype blog, it seems. So what. She's da best. Look how sweet she is!
You can send fan email to her to i_jedi@iobox.fi and...
whine me that "buhuu why OH Why she's already taken" ;D Ok...Im too tired today. I've spend
all day at the city and I just came home like 15mins ago. Drinking coffee,
listening music, its not raining anymore and I have new red t-shirt. Woo.
tiistai, syyskuu 04, 2001 |
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maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001
Graah! I should download new brains for myself...I didnt understand to take umbrella for me today, So Im all wet right now after spending day at the city. Its rainy and its not warm rain anymore...So winter is coming. Buhuu.
Listening Etnica's Vimana. Had to but some superb trance music to get my mood and energy up up up. It always works. I want to go dance somewhere...
My day was pretty ok. Minus thing was that cause ekhowl was too tired, I didnt get a change to meet him. Grr. ;) Anyway, tomorrow then. So I met Senni, she got her jacket back and we went to check out book shops (havent been in any after I came back, cause I always find something what I want and everyone knows the fact that Im always broke ;)) and cd's...Senni bought Bj�rk 's new album and Big Band Voodoo Daddy's album too. Woo. She's going to burn 'em to me before I leave...If she dont do that Im going to kick her ass soo hard that she'll never walk again ;)) (Senni, dont worry, I will always love you, no matter what.)
Ok now Im listening Astralasia's "Seven pointed star"...This is the song for getting mood up and dance til you die. Oaaah.
Usually rain gets my very down, but today I had too much to think. I met senni, we went to coffee, I met Joakim again. I somehow always seems to meet him when Im going to drink coffee somewhere. Oh well were meeting in wednesday. Nice. Im going to have a hectic week now. So much to do, so little time, so many friend to meet...so many things to pack and aaargh. Well one perfect little thingie is, that weekend will be bliss. Hanging around with Mare, tolkien meet (I miss everyone, Im soo happy to see 'em irl again) etc etc. I hope that I can arrange someone to throw me to J�rvenp�� in sunday...Hum. Argh. Dont want to panic about that right now...*trying to boost that thought away from her brains* tralalalaa...
I miss Nobody.
I miss him So. He's so beautiful and soft. Awwww.
Astral Projection - Kabalah (new age mix) ... this makes me get million micro-orgasm in burst. Im glad that I understood to but this music on now. Anyway, Ahahah today I saw the biggest joke in whole world. Bold and the Beautiful dubbed in Finnish. It was so hilarious, I laughed til my tummy started to hurt.
Ok, Coffee and then I need to start working. We are planning our first music video right now, it will be great. One minus thingie is that Im the main actor in it. Eeek. Anyway, that's life. It will be exciting.
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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Gaah. Rainy day. I try not to care about it and be as sappy as I can be. I go to meet ekhowl today (whoo) and...well that's my days plan. I should also go to 'ty�kk�ri' but hell...Im too lazy to sit there and wait forever just to say hello help me to someone. We'll see.
I think Senni is pretty angry to me now. It seems so, cause well in sunday morning, when I left her place with the first morning bus, I didnt have jacket, so I took one warm black jacket (which btw, is mine but I 'gave' it to Senni ;)) cause it was cold outside...and after it I totally forgot it. And now...First thing at the morning, before 8am was that Senni tried to call me and send me a very snappy and angry sms. Im sure she got another jacket to wear but...;) hehe
Well I should be going, Im drinking my morning coffee right now, listening Bj�rk's Hidden Place and getting myself ready to hit the road.
Mauski wrote in my gbook. Her msg was so cute and somehow hilarious that it saved my day before that it even has started. Hehee. Ok Laters.
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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Ahaha. Im all hopeless today. Ok, first of all, I've been sitting here planning to get something to eat like last past 6h. Then I decide to do something about it, I make toasts, and while theyre in toast machine, I came back here to see what's going on. I forgot that I had something to do at the kitchen, and when I runned back, I found 2 all black and burned toasts. But...cause Im SO hungry, I ate 'em anyway. I think I'll do few more, Im still hungry. This is lazy gloomy sunday or what?!
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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Ok I hate Windows. Aargh. I hate computers. Aargh. I hate hate hate technology! < / I G N O R E > me ;))
Just having some problems with Win95 again...and again...and again.
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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Wooh! Looks like that our new songs are getting slowly in theyre places online to MP3.com...Heheh this 'J.A.S.S' is funny name, cause we've been calling this song with work name 'just a little soul song' and so we put it shorter 8) ... Now Im listening old finnish workerclass songs. Woo.
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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I found great homepage. I love his art and how he writes...check it out!
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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My heart is beating. My brains are bursting thoughts and fears. Its night, so Im over emotional and thinking too much. And maybe this music is doing something to me too...Scott Walker, Portieshead, Massive attack, Circle, Lost Highway soundtrack...I've been sitting here listening music hours and hours. I started to desing one pages that I have to do before I leave to J�rvenp��, but then my computer went grazy and all the things I've got done just disappeard. I was like Argh goddamned, felt like I could just sit here screaming out loud, but I took all my favorite chill out music from my collection and sat down here. I wish I could had someone here to have long conversation with, sleep next to right now...anyway...I had so much fun last night. Oh my. I'll write more about it tomorrow. Then Some Janis Joplin, Groove convention, Kingston Wall, Goa music and aah Im on my way to sleep. Take me back again to your warm desire...aah...I love this.
maanantai, syyskuu 03, 2001 |
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sunnuntai, syyskuu 02, 2001
Oh my Im tired.
I'll write everything here later.
I had great time.
sunnuntai, syyskuu 02, 2001 |
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